Listening to God

God spoke to me and I am trying to listen.   I’ve been facing some hard things at the church I attend and serve at.  A few weeks ago I cried out to God, This isn’t fair- it feels like he is casting me out of the family I love.  I wept.

When I got quiet God spoke.  He said to me in His gentle, loving, fulfilling voice – I am allowing the preacher to cast you out of this church, because otherwise you won’t reach for what I have for you.  I argued, but God these kids need me.  This congregation needs me and I need them.  We strengthen each other.  And you told me to protect the children.  I am trying to.  God was silent.  He never argues with me….. He lets me go on and on……  Then I have to get quiet and think about what and why He said what He said.

God said He needs me to reach for something.  That is exciting and scary.  I like my comfort zone.  Let me rephrase that – I REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE my comfort zone!  But God has a plan.  He didn’t give me a clue.  Not even a hint!   Do I reach or stay??  That decision was the easy one!  I am reaching and have let the ‘powers at be’ know at church that my last class with the kids will be Dec 21st.

I am loyal and a fighter.  I naturally want to dig in my heels and force the preacher to treat me kinder and accept that I am not his enemy.  Sadly, though I understand why he dislikes me.  I have to walk and trust God.  God said He would protect the kids from any type of harm.  Trust and Obey.  Trust and Obey.  So I have played lots of scenarios in my mind of how to leave.  There is only one option.  I am here to serve and grow the Kingdom of God.  Division is not of God.  God multiplies us.  He multiplies us spiritually, emotionally and physically.  I am to multiply the Kingdom.  So I turned in my notice with a quick line of it is time for me to move on.

I hope to be able to share with my family that God is calling me to reach for something.  And that they can hold me up in prayers.  I hope to not bring ANY division to God’s family.  EVER!!  I want to bring everyone home to God’s Kingdom- full of love and acceptance.

Having said all of that, it was really hard when one of the kindest ladies texted me and let me know she would make the bulletin for church this week.  I know she was recruited to help lift the ‘burdens’ off of my shoulder- but the bulletin has been my ‘baby’.  I was so excited when I was given the task of producing it each week.  Then it grew to me writing the story each week- Another time God laughed at me!  I know I turned in my notice and the tasks I do must be covered, but my ‘baby’ is the first to go.  That stung.  and it STUNK.  I’ve moped today and my family has loved on me.  They are excited for this next journey as they didn’t enjoy this church as much I have.

My goal tomorrow is to smile, speak kindly to everyone and pour out God’s love on His family.   My goal is not to dig in my heels and bring division.  Even when the tasks I do are taken on by others, I pray God reminds me, Reach!  Reach, daughter!  I have something for you.


Ponderings of 2 Kings 9

          As I was reading Chapter 9 of 2 Kings this week it brought many things to mind. On a wall in our home we have this quote: “IF YOU CAN’T BE A GOOD EXAMPLE THEN YOU’LL JUST HAVE TO BE A HORRIBLE WARNING.”

          Jezebel is a horrible warning.  Yes.  I know the bible tells us of all the idolatry she led people to- She never learned from her wrong doings.  Her choices led her to being murdered & eaten by dogs.  Ugh!  Scary! I DO NOT want that for myself!

          Some of us learn by others mistakes & then here are the Jezebels whom attempt to force their way of thinking onto the world.  I’ve never seen this work & yet people continue to behave like this.

          My hope is that we all pay attention to the “HORRIBLE WARNINGS” like the Bible revelation of Jezebel and chose the higher ground forever more.  It is important for us to love one another.  This does not mean just the people we attend church with.  This means that annoying neighbor who mows his lawn while we are trying to nap, or that young mother whose kids are chaotic at best.

          Love one another for no reason at all.  Just love them because God loves us.  We are not always the best child, but God loves us through those times so we can love others.

Whether we believe the same or not as long as we worship the Most High God then all that is left is to love each other as God loves us!

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving!

I have seen so much over this beautiful month to be thankful for.  I pray each one of you have also found lots to be thankful for.

I want to thank everyone here!  Each person here has touched my life in some way that has brought so much good into my world.  Thank you for keeping God alive in me and through me.

I thank you for smiles, the laughs and the appreciation.  I thank you for the prayers that have brought about healing in my marriage.  I thank you for the support through hard times and  for the continuous love, no matter what was happening in your own life.

I thank you for the suggestions on how to correct something, or how to improve another project.

I thank you for the hugs. I thank you for  the kisses. I thank you for the handshakes.  I thank you for the cards.  I thank you for the emails. I thank you for the flowers.  I thank you for the texts.

I thank you for listening.  Some of you listened to me in small ways and others listened to me in big ways. I thank each of you more than words can tell you!  You have grown me in ways I never dreamed possible!

I thank you for welcoming me into your congregation.  I thank you for encouraging me to worship among you.  I thank you for allowing me to serve with you.


I thank you for teaching my grandchildren.  I thank you for helping a young man come to know our Savior and be baptized.

I thank you for caring about who I care about.  I thank you.  I have rarely ever experienced love like this.

I am thankful that God loved us so much He sent His only begotten Son to bring us salvation and eternal life.  I am thankful that I will get to spend eternity with YOU!

As I count my blessings, I count YOU.  You have made a difference to me.  For that I will remain eternally grateful.

Thank you for loving me like the Lord loves me.  I will never forget it!!

I thank you for giving.  This congregation of people give in a huge way!

Please feel free to share what you are thankful for!


            Ezra 10:11  (KJV)

11 Now therefore make confession unto the Lord God of your fathers, and do his pleasure: and separate yourselves from the people of the land, and from the strange wives.

We had a tumultuous week in our Maloney homes this week.  Christiane ran away from her father’s home.  This brought panic, fear, anger, anxiety which caused mean, hurtful things and actions that are hard to overcome.

Praise God she was back in safe care very late Tuesday night and we have been walking thru the aftermath of her actions and trying to help build all aspects of her family.  Friday night we all sat down, Christiane, her mother, father, grandfather and I.  We openly talked about what went wrong.  I helped Christiane tell her mother things she had been hiding from her mother.  I helped her tell her father she had been hiding from him.  Watching the transformation in her was amazing.  Her world did not collapse and her parents supported her throughout her confessions.  She got to lose anxiety, fear and even anger.  Freedom was shining through her eyes.  She then confessed and shocked me too.  I chose the path with Jesus and offered her more love for being honest.  We left her that night with her Dad, no longer fearful and looking forward to her future.

If we would separate ourselves from our sins and those who encourage us to sin, confess our wrongs as God asks us to- it can change our lives!  It can free us from the bondage that Satan holds us in.  Step into the light- confess and heal your heart, heal your life and shine brightly for God throughout your life!!

New Beginnings

New Beginnings   By Rebecca Maloney

We are so blessed!  God chose to send His Son to give us a New Beginning in our individual lives!  What have you done to overcome your old self and shine in a new way for God?  There are so many ways we can change ourselves so that we are continually growing nigh to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

Many years ago I took the 30 day challenge that K-Love Radio offers.  Have you ever considered listening to only Christian music for 30 days?  It is life changing!  It brings you closer to God. It was not easy.  There were days I just refused to turn the radio on at all.  But at the end of one simple month, my taste in music changed for the rest of my life.

A few years ago I took a challenge to read my entire bible in 90 days!  Wow!  It was tough!  When I missed days I had to figure out how to catch up.  I didn’t get my bible read in 90 days.  It took me 100 days.  I did finish the goal, not perfectly as most things in my life.

Many years ago I realized I knew very little about God, His word or religion.  I knew I wanted to go to heaven.  I decided I was going to have to apply my time and energy to learn about God, His word and ‘religion’.  I made the choice to attend church regularly during that 30 day K-Love challenge.  When I heard something I did not understand I researched.  Sometimes I could find answers in my bible, other times I used the internet.  Many times I would ask my husband or Pastor what a song chorus or scripture meant .

God has created so many ways for us, His beloved children, to come home to him.  I urge everyone to look for YOUR own new beginning that will bring you new blessings and even closer to God.

Join a small group, volunteer to teach bible classes, attend church on Wednesdays, read a bible devotional (available in print or online), subscribe to a  bible verse a day, take the K-Love challenge, commit to reading your bible all the way through this  year, watch or listen to additional sermons each week, or do what God has laid on your heart.

I would love to encourage you in reaching your goals!!  Email me at or call me with your goals!  970-379-7193